Don't ask me what I feel for you.
I don't feel things for you.
I am for you.
I exist for you.
Feelings are fickle.
I am not.

Morgan's Mission was started because I failed to protect someone that I love very much from abuse. Morgan escaped the abuse and cut contact with not only me, but with the entire family, because those who weren't participating in the abuse were either ignoring the abuse or completely blind to it.

Why did we all fail Morgan? We all knew the signs of abuse because abuse in some form had been happening to us all, for generations. How could we all have failed at being family? Being human?

How dare I walk this earth, thinking that I'm a good person because I don't inflict harm? How good a person can I be if I can see a defenseless and innocent person be subjected to abuse and I look the other way?

Who am I?
What am I?

I didn't deserve Morgan. I needed to fix myself so that I could be someone who not only deserves to be in Morgan's life or to have the life I have now, but also deserves to exist for others.

Therapy helped me to understand how and why I failed Morgan. I learned that I have CPTSD from my childhood and my early adulthood; that I spent much of my life in survival mode. I knew that being in survival mode caused me to disassociate during stressful triggers, and this is one reason why I failed Morgan. I couldn't clearly see what Morgan was going through or a path to help Morgan with the things I could recognize.

"It was Eve who was beguiled by the snake. I aim never to be harmed by a snake again and to be a safe place for those bitten while they heal from the poison."

To ensure I never again miss what is in front of me and always be a safe place for people's healing and support for their rebuilding of their lives after surviving trauma and abuse, I will serve Morgan's Mission. I will live up to my personal philosophy: "If you didn't come from a healthy family, make sure a healthy family comes from you." My love for the world will be expressed through living a life characterized by truth, justice, and mercy for all.

I believe we can significantly impact the world just by doing what we can and should for ourselves and those around us. If we fix ourselves, we can fix the world!

I'm excited for the work ahead!
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Take care and be well.
ODABO!